“For a moment
there was silence, even the little voice in my head perked its ear to the voices
of the universe, a whisper of enlightenment.” -“Ancient Blood” excerpt
Paramount to the Sexual Vampire
once they become aware of their own energy needs and its various uses are
learning how to understand it. Most of the articles written in this section
speak to the vampire as if they already know to some extent about how to affect
their energy. However, if you are like me and learned to feed long before you
learned about what you are, and the reasons for your actions, it might not be so
simple use this energy.
The Interesting things about
individual energy for vampires, unlike others, is that our own level of energy
increases and decreases with such frequency that we are not able to count of a
consistent level of energy to draw from. We are however able to learn with some
skill how to use what we have and to what level. Of course, this is also
determined on being able to recognize ones own energy and where ones energy
level stands.
Many cultures through out time have
learned these skills. Most of which I personally believe came from the vampires
through out time out of need, and have been passed on people who have discovered
uses for those practices, and even refined them. Many people today can use
energy in similar fashion as vampires, some have spent their whole lives
learning to understand those energies and employ them both in their belief
systems and in their personal lives.
Tantra, Buddhism and many others
like transcendentalism have found their energy, learned its rhythms and learned
how to employ them to impressive results. These skills are in no way restricted
to vampires, but a smart vampire can learn how they gained their result and
employ it in a like manner.
The most common aspect of these
groups has been learning how to meditate. There are many methods both ancient
and modern of meditation and really, the style you select most often reflects
our own nature. Meditation is not the goal, the path toward growth.
With in your meditation, once you
have learned to guide yourself into it a focused meditation the real trick is
learning to silence your own inner turmoil, or as I like to say turn off your
inner dialog. Only when you stop trying to think your way around your energy can
you really focus on feeling it, understanding how it flows in your body.
Take a moment, if you will, and
close your eyes and focus on thinking simply nothing. I think you will find it
is tricky to do so. We are brought up with language, with speaking and
identifying things. We learn from the time we are able to comprehend that things
have names and needs identified.
Rather than simply
being silent, we actually tend to think the word Silence. By putting a name to
the silence, we disrupt it. Instead of thinking of silence, focus instead on
listening, feeling, taking in information around you but only let your conscious
mind focus on each thing a moment.
Let yourself focus on the sound of the air around you, the pulse of your heart,
the clothing on your skin. Feel these things than feel not for some force of
energy, but what you are feeling. Your energy is reflected in your mood, in how
your body feels and how it is reacting to the things around you.
Learning to find this inner silence
allows you to identify that energy, to seek it out and identify the feeling
completely, not just the mood, but the factors around you that influence it.
Once it is identified, we can do things to change that energy, to mold it and
make into what we desire to some extent.